I had Champ put to sleep this morning. :'( :'( There was nothing we could to make her better. :no: :no: She wouldn't eat or drink. I know I did the right thing,but it was one of the hardest things, I ever had to do. :'( :'( I know it was time,but that was my baby :smile:. She went through so many struggles, and fought so hard to survive, when I first got her.She really was a Champion. :yes: :yes: Getting her was the best thing I ever did. :smile: :smile: This is going to be really hard to deal with. :'( :'( She's only been gone, for a little more than an hour, and I miss her terribly. :'( :'( I've had so much loss lately, I don't know how much more I can take. :no: :no: My heart broke today. :'( :'(
I'm so sorry Dex. It was probably the right thing to do though. My heart goes out to you!
Awww...I'm sorry for your loss X's 2...and in such a short period of time.
Stay strong, Dex. :'(
Quote from: kimmi on May 26, 2007, 02:16:27 PM
I'm so sorry Dex. It was probably the right thing to do though. My heart goes out to you!
Thanks :smile: I'm totally convinced it was the right thing to do. We took her to 2 different vets, they didn't have much hope at all. :no: :no: The last vet said he'd do everything he could,that was yesterday. He told us if we couldn't get her to eat soon, she would deteriorate real fast,and she did. When cats are near death they sometimes pull away from you. Champ wouldn't let me hold her this morning,so something inside, told me it was time to let her go. :'( :'( I hate feeling the way I do today,everything seems so hopeless. I told my husband, on the way to the vet's, that I wasn't going to do any more animal rescues. He looked at me for about 30 second smiled and said "you'll never stop I know you too well." He says "you can't walk away from an animal in need." He's right, but I wish I could ,because losing Champ is killing me. :'( :no:
That next needy baby will be brought to you, hand delivered by Champ. It is what you do!
Quote from: Sunny on May 26, 2007, 02:38:43 PM
Awww...I'm sorry for your loss X's 2...and in such a short period of time.
Stay strong, Dex. :'(
Thanks :smile: Actually it's 3 in a month and a half. One of my other special needs cats, Pig Pen had to be put to sleep a month ago. He was rejected by his mommy when he was 3 weeks old. I took him to the vet, and they said, he had an underdeveloped rectal muscle. They didn't have much hope for him,but I did. All is not lost, until all hope is gone. He grew out of his problem, I'm not sure if it developed as he grew, or what happened for sure. He perservered,was healthy,was gaining weight and we got him fixed and he was doing great!!! One morning I got up ,and he was having trouble breathing. So I took him to the vet,they did some tests, and found out ,he had a humongous tumor in his lung. There was nothing they could do, because it was so big.So I had to have him put to sleep. :'( :'( So it's been pretty bad around here for a while. Between Mugsy and Champ,I've spent $1200.00 in one week, for tests and medical care. :spooked: They were worth every penny,but that is quite a chunk for one week.
Quote from: kimmi on May 26, 2007, 02:59:27 PM
That next needy baby will be brought to you, hand delivered by Champ. It is what you do!
I'm really hoping someday, she'll be waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge. :yes: :yes: I hope someday to hold her again. I want her to know,I never forgot her. :smile:
She'll know Dex. You brought that cat the happiest moments of her life. Without you the struggle would have been over long ago. She knew love and that's the most precious gift to give.
I'm so sorry about Champ.
Quote from: MsMojo on May 26, 2007, 07:51:48 PM
She'll know Dex. You brought that cat the happiest moments of her life. Without you the struggle would have been over long ago. She knew love and that's the most precious gift to give.
I'm so sorry about Champ.
Thanks :smile: The more time that goes by, the worse it gets. :'( It's starting to sink in. :'( It really is a shock. Because she was doing great. The thought never occurred to me ,that she would be dead, in one weeks time. It hurts so bad. I don't know how I'm going to get through this. :'( :'( I keep thinking about her beautiful little face. I've had pets die before,but for some reason,this one is different. I have a friend that took care of her. I called and left a message and she never called me back. She's probably mad at me. Which is really bad because,I need all the support I can get. She doesn't know how much Champ was suffering. She's one of those selfish people, that thinks you shouldn't have animals put to sleep. One time she had a kitten, that somebody accidentally slammed in the car door,basically it was in a vegetative state. She wouldn't put it out of it's misery, mercifully it died 3 weeks later. I think that was cruel and selfish.
I agree Dex! Sometimes we have to do things that we don't want to do but must because it is good for the other party involved!
Quote from: kimmi on May 26, 2007, 09:20:05 PM
I agree Dex! Sometimes we have to do things that we don't want to do but must because it is good for the other party involved!
Absolutely!!! :smile: I wont let my animals suffer,when there's no hope for recovery, and they don't have a good quality of life, I let them go. It kills me,but it's the responsible thing to do. Sometimes I sit and second guess myself as to whether I did the right thing. I go over and over it in my mind and torture myself. :no: :no: The vet told us she wouldn't have a good quality of life. He said if she recovered from this,she would still be sick all the time, and waste away. :'( :'( I couldn't let that happen. I can't even imagine her sicker than she was. Her and I were up for 4 nights, because she kept retching and coughing and vomiting. It truly was a nightmare. :spooked: At least she isn't suffering anymore,so I'm thankful for that. :yes:
Tommorrow I have to return to work. I'm really dreading it,because I'm still very emotional about Champ. I hate having to face the world,when I can't stop crying. I loved Champ so much. I can't believe she's gone. I never realized what a big part of my life she was. She was always by my side,she went everywhere I did.Today I went to put food in the dishes,I always made sure she could find them,I never moved or rearranged them. She's not here now,it really made me think of my life without her. I miss her so bad. I'd give up everything I own, to be with my little Angel again. I want so bad to hold her, and tell her how much I love her. I don't know if I'm going to survive this or not. I've had some horrible tragedies in my life,and I've struggled to stay sane,but this time it's different. I know all of this sounds pretty stupid, but I cant have children,and my animals are a substitute. In a way it's kind of like losing a child.
Not really, Dexter. Why would anyone assume that someone should love a pet less than a person? I tell my kids that the one thing they should never apologize for is how they feel. Feelings are the most true reflection of who we are. Sometimes getting back into the regular routine of things serves as a balm. If you have a close relationship with your supervisor, perhaps ask her to quietly mention to everyone that they should ask you about Champ at this time. That could help, without the well-meaning sympathy from your friends, you may be able to focus on the task at hand and take your mind off of her for a little while. With time, the pain should pass and be replaced with the memories of Champ and the joy you brought each other.
Sympathy and best wishes, Dex. I'll send some positive thoughts your way.
Quote from: MsMojo on May 28, 2007, 10:17:08 PM
Not really, Dexter. Why would anyone assume that someone should love a pet less than a person? I tell my kids that the one thing they should never apologize for is how they feel. Feelings are the most true reflection of who we are. Sometimes getting back into the regular routine of things serves as a balm. If you have a close relationship with your supervisor, perhaps ask her to quietly mention to everyone that they should ask you about Champ at this time. That could help, without the well-meaning sympathy from your friends, you may be able to focus on the task at hand and take your mind off of her for a little while. With time, the pain should pass and be replaced with the memories of Champ and the joy you brought each other.
Sympathy and best wishes, Dex. I'll send some positive thoughts your way.
Today,I returned to work and did very well. :smile: I never broke down once. When ever I started to think about her,I just pushed it to the back of my mind. I'm proud of myself for not breaking down. :yes: :yes: This evening I'm going to bury her. Last night my husband and I dug the grave. I bought a plastic box to put her in. :yes: I always try to give my pets a proper burial. It's not going to be easy,but I have to let her go now.
You're in our thoughts this evening, Dex...give yourself an extra hug & be proud of your strength. It was probably very challenging to return to your daily routine today, but you DID IT. :hug:
Quote from: Sunny on May 29, 2007, 08:19:31 PM
You're in our thoughts this evening, Dex...give yourself an extra hug & be proud of your strength. It was probably very challenging to return to your daily routine today, but you DID IT. :hug:
Thanks :smile: it helps to know people care. :yes: I just came in from burying her,it went pretty good. Tonight I'm going to listen to her favorite song. She loved "I Hope You Dance" by Leann Womack. She used to sit and sway her head back and forth to the music. She didn't have any eyes. To watch her it kind of reminds me of Ray Charles and Stevie Wonder. She was soo cute when she did that. Okay, I've managed to bum myself out. :'( :'( MORE LATER.
Another day at work without breaking down. The more time that goes by the more I miss her. I hate being alone now,because when I'm alone, I have too much time to think about her. :'( :'( I hope this gets easier. I only have to hold it together for 2 more days (thank God),my vacation starts Saturday. I'll be off for 9 days,hopefully I'll get it together by the time I go back. :yes: :yes:
I know this is going to sound kind of weird but my daughter talked me into keeping a dog which had been dumped by someone when he was a puppy and we had him for 13yrs. He passed away about 18yrs ago and I still think about him often. I have dreamed about him several times and he always comes up to me and licks my hand, which he never did when he was alive, and is always happy wagging his tail, very excited, and with another dog who just stands back watching. He will then rest his head against me look up and leave. I always feel better after having one of those dreams. Maybe Champ will come to you one of these nights... :hug:
Quote from: me on May 30, 2007, 09:29:29 PM
I know this is going to sound kind of weird but my daughter talked me into keeping a dog which had been dumped by someone when he was a puppy and we had him for 13yrs. He passed away about 18yrs ago and I still think about him often. I have dreamed about him several times and he always comes up to me and licks my hand, which he never did when he was alive, and is always happy wagging his tail, very excited, and with another dog who just stands back watching. He will then rest his head against me look up and leave. I always feel better after having one of those dreams. Maybe Champ will come to you one of these nights... :hug:
That's neat!!! I never sleep deep enough to dream. They say people dream every time they sleep and just don't remember it. I cant remember the last time I had a dream. I used to have nightmares and wake up screaming. I've had insomnia my entire life. It would be really cool, if Champ came to me in a dream.
Quote from: Dexter Morgan on May 30, 2007, 09:43:50 PM
That's neat!!! I never sleep deep enough to dream. They say people dream every time they sleep and just don't remember it. I cant remember the last time I had a dream. I used to have nightmares and wake up screaming. I've had insomnia my entire life. It would be really cool, if Champ came to me in a dream.
I have insomnia off and on but not as a rule. I mostly do the insomnia thing if I haven't been doing anything physical for a few days to tire myself. Winters are the pits.....lol Thankfully I haven't any had nightmares for about 8yrs now.
Quote from: me on May 30, 2007, 09:53:43 PM
I have insomnia off and on but not as a rule. I mostly do the insomnia thing if I haven't been doing anything physical for a few days to tire myself. Winters are the pits.....lol Thankfully I haven't any had nightmares for about 8yrs now.
I used to dream that I had spiders crawling on me. :spider: It's crazy because I'm not scared of spiders. :confused: I also run in my sleep. My husband says it's funnier than hell to watch. He says I sleep on my side, and my legs are going a hundred miles per hour LOL!!! I've screamed so loud in my sleep (when we lived in town) that our local cop drove by, just to make sure everything was Okay,he was sitting 2 blocks away. :spooked:
Quote from: Dexter Morgan on May 31, 2007, 05:54:46 PM
I used to dream that I had spiders crawling on me. :spider: It's crazy because I'm not scared of spiders. :confused: I also run in my sleep. My husband says it's funnier than hell to watch. He says I sleep on my side, and my legs are going a hundred miles per hour LOL!!! I've screamed so loud in my sleep (when we lived in town) that our local cop drove by, just to make sure everything was Okay,he was sitting 2 blocks away. :spooked:
Oh my, you do have bad ones. I used to scream out like that, did it one time when we were camping thank goodness we were in the boonies, and sometimes not even wake up. Never had cop come to the door though although my hubby, ex-hubby now, was afraid the neighbors might think he was beating me or something. We took a 3 week vacation one year and I was petrified I'd scream out in one of the motels we stayed in but never did thank goodness.
I miss Champ soo much. :'( :'( It's getting a little better,but every time I think about her it kills me. :'( :'( I just hope I did the right thing. Both vets I took her to seem to act like it was hopeless for her to recover. She was just a wonderful little cat. She helped me get over having my oldest cat die he was 13 years old. Champ made the loss of Kato alot easier. Every time I think about her,I get a pain in my heart. It's an overwhelming sense of emptiness. She was just my everything. :yes: :yes: When I get home from work I still look for her. At supper time, I have to keep myself from yelling, "Champy it's time to eat" it's such a habit. A person never realizes how much pets fit into our daily lives. She was a huge part of my life. Now she's gone and I'm empty. :no: :no:
I know exactly how you feel. I was that way last July when I lost my 12 year old Smokey. I got her when she was just 8 weeks old. She was my constant companion. But I have her daughter, Samantha, and that helped. Samantha just turned 10...so I know she doesn't have many more years ahead of her either. It does get better as time goes along. Smokey is buried in the family pet plot in my mother in laws backyard. I visit her often. She has a little Angel Kitty statue marking her place. My other cat, Midnight, who died from complications of diabetes in 2004(he was also 12) is there with her.
Well ,I'm on vacation now,Whoohoo!!! :chacha: Today I bought a beautiful pink miniature rose bush to plant on Champ's grave. :smile: I've never seen one quite like it. It has 3 different colors of petals. :yes: :yes: Some of them are a real light pinkish white,some of them are a medium pink and the other ones are a real deep pink. It's breathtaking to say the least. The flowers are real tiny and delicate. The minute I saw it,I thought of Champ. We're going to make a memorial garden for Champ, and our other pets that have gone before. I think something with scalloped landscape edging and white marble rock. My husband actually thought it was a great idea. :spooked: Usually he says, "It's just one more thing to mow around." I think I've finally worn him down LOL!!!! We're also going to order a headstone, with the names of pets we've lost. I think it will be real nice when we get it done.
And you should put a bird feeder or bird bath there so there are always animals around!
Quote from: kimmi on June 02, 2007, 05:23:14 PM
And you should put a bird feeder or bird bath there so there are always animals around!
Thats a great idea :smile: , but if I did my other cats would think it's a smorgas board. :spooked: :spooked: I would be leading the birds to an almost certain death. :bird: :meow: :spooked: Hey,help me out with this,is this dog :dogrun: running or taking a dump :confused: :spooked: LOL!!!
Running.
Quote from: kimmi on June 02, 2007, 05:49:36 PM
Running.
Are you sure???? :smile: He looks like he's jacked-up to take a dump :dogrun: to me LOL!!
Tonight I finally got Champs rose bush planted. I kept putting it off,but tonight I thought to myself,if I don't get it planted it will die.So I got it planted,and I feel better. Champ was very special to me and I miss her everyday. She was the best little cat any person could ever had. I feel fortunate for the time I had her. She taught me alot about being dependable to others. She depended on me on every level,and I learned not to be so concerned with myself,but to be dependable for this precious kitty,that needed so much from me.My big regret is that in life, she was in darkness,and I was there to comfort her,in her death I can't help her anymore,and it kills me. :'(