Champ is gone

[Dexter Morgan]

You're in our thoughts this evening, Dex...give yourself an extra hug & be proud of your strength. It was probably very challenging to return to your daily routine today, but you DID IT. 

Thanks  it helps to know people care. I just came in from burying her,it went pretty good. Tonight I'm going to listen to her favorite song. She loved "I Hope You Dance" by Leann Womack. She used to sit and sway her head back and forth to the music. She didn't have any eyes. To watch her it kind of reminds me of Ray Charles and Stevie Wonder. She was soo cute when she did that. Okay, I've managed to bum myself out.  MORE LATER.

[Dexter Morgan]

Another day at work without breaking down. The more time that goes by the more I miss her. I hate being alone now,because when I'm alone, I have too much time to think about her.    I hope this gets easier. I only have to hold it together for 2 more days (thank God),my vacation starts Saturday. I'll be off for 9 days,hopefully I'll get it together by the time I go back. 

[me]

I know this is going to sound kind of weird but my daughter talked me into keeping a dog which had been dumped by someone when he was a puppy and we had him for 13yrs.  He passed away about 18yrs ago and I still think about him often.  I have dreamed about him several times and he always comes up to me and licks my hand, which he never did when he was alive, and is always happy wagging his tail, very excited, and with another dog who just stands back watching.  He will then rest his head against me look up and leave.  I always feel better after having one of those dreams.  Maybe Champ will come to you one of these nights...

[Dexter Morgan]

I know this is going to sound kind of weird but my daughter talked me into keeping a dog which had been dumped by someone when he was a puppy and we had him for 13yrs.  He passed away about 18yrs ago and I still think about him often.  I have dreamed about him several times and he always comes up to me and licks my hand, which he never did when he was alive, and is always happy wagging his tail, very excited, and with another dog who just stands back watching.  He will then rest his head against me look up and leave.  I always feel better after having one of those dreams.  Maybe Champ will come to you one of these nights...

That's neat!!! I never sleep deep enough to dream. They say people dream every time they sleep and just don't remember it. I cant remember the last time I had a dream. I used to have nightmares and wake up screaming. I've had insomnia my entire life. It would be really cool, if Champ came to me in a dream.

[me]

That's neat!!! I never sleep deep enough to dream. They say people dream every time they sleep and just don't remember it. I cant remember the last time I had a dream. I used to have nightmares and wake up screaming. I've had insomnia my entire life. It would be really cool, if Champ came to me in a dream.

I have insomnia off and on but not as a rule.  I mostly do the insomnia thing if I haven't been doing anything physical for a few days to tire myself.  Winters are the pits.....lol   Thankfully I haven't any had nightmares for about 8yrs now. 

[Dexter Morgan]

I have insomnia off and on but not as a rule.  I mostly do the insomnia thing if I haven't been doing anything physical for a few days to tire myself.  Winters are the pits.....lol   Thankfully I haven't any had nightmares for about 8yrs now. 

I used to dream that I had spiders crawling on me.  It's crazy because I'm not scared of spiders.   I also run in my sleep. My husband says it's funnier than hell to watch. He says I sleep on my side, and my legs are going a hundred miles per hour LOL!!! I've screamed so loud in my sleep (when we lived in town) that our local cop drove by, just to make sure everything was Okay,he was sitting 2 blocks away. 

[me]

I used to dream that I had spiders crawling on me.  It's crazy because I'm not scared of spiders.   I also run in my sleep. My husband says it's funnier than hell to watch. He says I sleep on my side, and my legs are going a hundred miles per hour LOL!!! I've screamed so loud in my sleep (when we lived in town) that our local cop drove by, just to make sure everything was Okay,he was sitting 2 blocks away. 

Oh my, you do have bad ones.  I used to scream out like that, did it one time when we were camping thank goodness we were in the boonies, and sometimes not even wake up.  Never had cop come to the door though although my hubby, ex-hubby now, was afraid the neighbors might think he was beating me or something.  We took a 3 week vacation one year and I was petrified I'd scream out in one of the motels we stayed in but never did thank goodness. 

[Dexter Morgan]

I miss Champ soo much.  It's getting a little better,but every time I think about her it kills me.  I just hope I did the right thing. Both vets I took her to seem to act like it was hopeless for her to recover. She was just a wonderful little cat. She helped me get over having my oldest cat die he was 13 years old. Champ made the loss of Kato alot easier. Every time I think about her,I get a pain in my heart. It's an overwhelming sense of emptiness. She was just my everything.  When I get home from work I still look for her. At supper time, I have to keep myself  from yelling, "Champy it's time to eat" it's such a habit. A person never realizes how much pets fit into our daily lives. She was a huge part of my life. Now she's gone and I'm empty. 

[smokeykat]

I know exactly how you feel.  I was that way last July when I lost my 12 year old Smokey.  I got her when she was just 8 weeks old.  She was my constant companion.  But I have her daughter, Samantha, and that helped.  Samantha just turned 10...so I know she doesn't have many more years ahead of her either.  It does get better as time goes along.  Smokey is buried in the family pet plot in my mother in laws backyard.   I visit her often.  She has a little Angel Kitty statue marking her place.  My other cat, Midnight, who died from complications of diabetes in 2004(he was also 12) is there with her.

[Dexter Morgan]

Well ,I'm on vacation now,Whoohoo!!!  Today I bought a beautiful pink miniature rose bush to plant on Champ's grave.  I've never seen one quite like it. It has 3 different colors of petals.  Some of them are a real light pinkish white,some of them are a medium pink and the other ones are a real deep pink. It's breathtaking to say the least. The flowers are real tiny and delicate. The minute I saw it,I thought of Champ. We're going to make a memorial garden for Champ, and our other pets that have gone before. I think something with scalloped landscape edging and white marble rock. My husband actually thought it was a great idea.  Usually he says, "It's just one more thing to mow around." I think I've  finally worn him down LOL!!!! We're also going to order a headstone, with the names of pets we've lost. I think it will be real nice when we get it done.

[kimmi]

And you should put a bird feeder or bird bath there so there are always animals around!

[Dexter Morgan]

And you should put a bird feeder or bird bath there so there are always animals around!

Thats a great idea  , but if I did my other cats would think it's a smorgas board.  I would be leading the birds to an almost certain death.    Hey,help me out with this,is this dog  running or taking a dump    LOL!!!

[kimmi]

Running. 

[Dexter Morgan]

Running. 

Are you sure????  He looks like he's jacked-up to take a dump  to me LOL!!

[Dexter Morgan]

Tonight I finally got Champs rose bush planted. I kept putting it off,but tonight I thought to myself,if I don't get it planted it will die.So I got it planted,and I feel better. Champ was very special to me and I miss her everyday. She was the best little cat any person could ever had. I feel fortunate for the time I had her. She taught me alot about being dependable to others. She depended on me on every level,and I learned not to be so concerned with myself,but to be dependable for this precious kitty,that needed so much from me.My big regret is that in life, she was in darkness,and I was there to comfort her,in her death I can't help her anymore,and it kills me.