Champ is gone

[Dexter Morgan]

 I had Champ put to sleep this morning.  There was nothing we could to make her better.  She wouldn't eat or drink. I know I did the right thing,but it was one of the hardest things, I ever had to do.  I know it was time,but that was my baby  . She went through so many struggles, and fought so hard to survive, when I first got her.She really was a Champion. Getting her was the best thing I ever did.  This is going to be really hard to deal with.  She's only been gone, for a little more than an hour, and I miss her terribly.    I've had so much loss lately, I don't know how much more I can take.  My heart broke today. 

[kimmi]

I'm so sorry Dex.  It was probably the right thing to do though.  My heart goes out to you!

[Sunny]

Awww...I'm sorry for your loss X's 2...and in such a short period of time.

Stay strong, Dex.

[Dexter Morgan]

I'm so sorry Dex.  It was probably the right thing to do though.  My heart goes out to you!

Thanks  I'm totally convinced it was the right thing to do. We took her to 2 different vets, they didn't have much hope at all.  The last vet said he'd do everything he could,that was yesterday. He told us if we couldn't get her to eat soon, she would deteriorate real fast,and she did. When cats are near death they sometimes pull away from you. Champ wouldn't let me hold her this morning,so something inside, told me it was time to let her go.    I hate feeling the way I do today,everything seems so hopeless. I told my husband, on the way to the vet's, that I wasn't going to do any more animal rescues. He looked at me for about 30 second smiled and said "you'll never stop I know you too well." He says "you can't walk away from an animal in need." He's right, but I wish I could ,because losing Champ is killing me. 

[kimmi]

That next needy baby will be brought to you, hand delivered by Champ.  It is what you do! 

[Dexter Morgan]

Awww...I'm sorry for your loss X's 2...and in such a short period of time.

Stay strong, Dex.

Thanks  Actually it's 3 in a month and a half. One of my other special needs cats, Pig Pen had to be put to sleep a month ago. He was rejected by his mommy when he was 3 weeks old. I took him to the vet, and they said, he had an underdeveloped rectal muscle. They didn't have much hope for him,but I did. All is not lost, until all hope is gone. He grew out of his problem, I'm not sure if it developed as he grew, or what happened for sure. He perservered,was healthy,was gaining weight and we got him fixed and he was doing great!!! One morning I got up ,and he was having trouble breathing. So I took him to the vet,they did some tests, and found out ,he had a humongous tumor in his lung. There was nothing they could do, because it was so big.So I had to have him put to sleep.    So it's been pretty bad around here for a while. Between Mugsy and Champ,I've spent $1200.00 in one week, for tests and medical care.  They were worth every penny,but that is quite a chunk for one week.

[Dexter Morgan]

That next needy baby will be brought to you, hand delivered by Champ.  It is what you do! 

I'm really hoping someday, she'll be waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge.  I hope someday to hold her again. I want her to know,I never forgot her. 

[Sandy Eggo]

She'll know Dex. You brought that cat the happiest moments of her life. Without you the struggle would have been over long ago. She knew love and that's the most precious gift to give.

I'm so sorry about Champ.

[Dexter Morgan]

She'll know Dex. You brought that cat the happiest moments of her life. Without you the struggle would have been over long ago. She knew love and that's the most precious gift to give.

I'm so sorry about Champ.

Thanks  The more time that goes by, the worse it gets. It's starting to sink in.  It really is a shock. Because she was doing great. The thought never occurred to me ,that she would be dead, in one weeks time. It hurts so bad. I don't know how I'm going to get through this.  I keep thinking about her beautiful little face. I've had pets die before,but for some reason,this one is different. I have a friend that took care of her. I called and left a message and she never called me back. She's probably mad at me. Which is really bad because,I need all the support I can get. She doesn't know how much Champ was suffering. She's one of those selfish people, that thinks you shouldn't have animals put to sleep. One time she had a kitten, that somebody accidentally slammed in the car door,basically it was in a vegetative state. She wouldn't put it out of it's misery, mercifully it died 3 weeks later. I think that was cruel and selfish.

[kimmi]

I agree Dex!  Sometimes we have to do things that we don't want to do but must because it is good for the other party involved! 

[Dexter Morgan]

I agree Dex!  Sometimes we have to do things that we don't want to do but must because it is good for the other party involved! 

Absolutely!!!  I wont let my animals suffer,when there's no hope for recovery, and they don't have a good quality of life, I let them go. It kills me,but it's the responsible thing to do. Sometimes I sit and second guess myself as to whether I did the right thing. I go over and over it in my mind and torture myself.  The vet told us she wouldn't have a good quality of life. He said if she recovered from this,she would still be sick all the time, and waste away.  I couldn't let that happen. I can't even imagine her sicker than she was. Her and I were up for 4 nights, because she kept retching and coughing and vomiting. It truly was a nightmare. At least she isn't suffering anymore,so I'm thankful for that. 

[Dexter Morgan]

Tommorrow I have to return to work. I'm really dreading it,because I'm still very emotional about Champ. I hate having to face the world,when I can't stop crying. I loved Champ so much. I can't believe she's gone. I never realized what a big part of my life she was. She was always by my side,she went everywhere I did.Today I went to put food in the dishes,I always made sure she could find them,I never moved or rearranged them. She's  not here now,it really made me think of my life without her. I miss her so bad. I'd give up everything I own, to be with my little Angel again. I want so bad to hold her, and tell her how much I love her. I don't know if I'm going to survive this or not. I've had some horrible tragedies in my life,and I've struggled to stay sane,but this time it's different. I know all of this sounds pretty stupid, but I cant have children,and my animals are a substitute. In  a way it's kind of like losing a child.

[Sandy Eggo]

Not really, Dexter. Why would anyone assume that someone should love a pet less than a person? I tell my kids that the one thing they should never apologize for is how they feel. Feelings are the most true reflection of who we are. Sometimes getting back into the regular routine of things serves as a balm. If you have a close relationship with your supervisor, perhaps ask her to quietly mention to everyone that they should ask you about Champ at this time. That could help, without the well-meaning sympathy from your friends, you may be able to focus on the task at hand and take your mind off of  her for a little while. With time, the pain should pass and be replaced with the memories of Champ and the joy you brought each other.

Sympathy and best wishes, Dex. I'll send some positive thoughts your way.

[Dexter Morgan]

Not really, Dexter. Why would anyone assume that someone should love a pet less than a person? I tell my kids that the one thing they should never apologize for is how they feel. Feelings are the most true reflection of who we are. Sometimes getting back into the regular routine of things serves as a balm. If you have a close relationship with your supervisor, perhaps ask her to quietly mention to everyone that they should ask you about Champ at this time. That could help, without the well-meaning sympathy from your friends, you may be able to focus on the task at hand and take your mind off of  her for a little while. With time, the pain should pass and be replaced with the memories of Champ and the joy you brought each other.

Sympathy and best wishes, Dex. I'll send some positive thoughts your way.

Today,I returned to work and did very well.  I never broke down once. When ever I started to think about her,I just pushed it to the back of my mind. I'm proud of myself for not breaking down.  This evening I'm going to bury her. Last night my husband and I dug the grave. I bought a plastic box to put her in.  I always try to give my pets a proper burial. It's not going to be easy,but I have to let her go now.

[Sunny]

You're in our thoughts this evening, Dex...give yourself an extra hug & be proud of your strength. It was probably very challenging to return to your daily routine today, but you DID IT.