Not happy :-[
:'(
How much more do you have to endure?
I remember when my mom was on radiation. It was pretty brutal.
My thoughts are with you.
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 14, 2007, 07:25:00 PM
Not happy :-[
Oh T. :'( I'm soooo sorry to hear that. Chin up Dahling it wont be much longer. :no: :hug:
OK--here's the deal........
In addition to my current ailment, I also have discoid lupus. It is an autoimmune disease that causes red splotches to pop up all over your body and they are intensified by sun or heat.
Basically, when you have discoid lupus and you get a sunburn, it's three times as severe as a normal sunburn.
Now you understand my depression and unhappiness.
The doc says that instead of the normal daily 15 min treatment, he's going to have to spread it out to 28 5 min treatments with a week off inbetween. So, I'm gonna be going through this crap way into Spring :mad:
I also should expect extensive burns and blisters. I go back this week to get my tattoos for alignment and get an impression of my head and arms so they zap me in exactly the same place each time.
Oh, and one more fun thing ........ the radiation will probably damage a layer of my right lung which will make any future x-rays look a bit fuzzy to the technician so I'm supposed to inform them of my radiation treatments. I may also have some breathing difficulties.
So I think I'm going to buy a carton of ciggies and a bottle of scotch and have my very own little pity party.
Pfft! I hate it when I get this way :mad:
So say your prayers for the pathetic, bald, one- boobed baby. >:(
And Merry F@#$in Christmas!
Tallu, my mother in law has Lupus also. I've seen what she has been through so far with it. My thoughts are with you, my friend. I know how down and depressed you are, but remember, all of your Zone friends care about you and will be praying for you. We love you, Tallu! :smitten:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 17, 2007, 09:14:54 AM
OK--here's the deal........
In addition to my current ailment, I also have discoid lupus. It is an autoimmune disease that causes red splotches to pop up all over your body and they are intensified by sun or heat.
Basically, when you have discoid lupus and you get a sunburn, it's three times as severe as a normal sunburn.
Now you understand my depression and unhappiness.
The doc says that instead of the normal daily 15 min treatment, he's going to have to spread it out to 28 5 min treatments with a week off inbetween. So, I'm gonna be going through this crap way into Spring :mad:
I also should expect extensive burns and blisters. I go back this week to get my tattoos for alignment and get an impression of my head and arms so they zap me in exactly the same place each time.
Oh, and one more fun thing ........ the radiation will probably damage a layer of my right lung which will make any future x-rays look a bit fuzzy to the technician so I'm supposed to inform them of my radiation treatments. I may also have some breathing difficulties.
So I think I'm going to buy a carton of ciggies and a bottle of scotch and have my very own little pity party.
Pfft! I hate it when I get this way :mad:
So say your prayers for the pathetic, bald, one- boobed baby. >:(
And Merry F@#$in Christmas!
Oh T :'( I'm sooo sorry to hear all of this. I don't even know what to say. I'm shocked speechless, and that never happens to me. I just can't believe it. I'm crying as I type this. :'( Your not pathetic T. you are a beautiful person, I know this because I know you through your posts. The T. I know holds her chin up high,and laughs in the face of tragedy. You can't let it win. This is a major set back, but you have to have faith, that it's going to get better. Don't give up T, we've discussed at great link, that everything happens for a reason. It's your plan,and you have to walk that path. I had sooo hoped that this was about over for you. You don't know how much I hoped that for you. I wonder why they never found the Lupus earlier? That's an auto immune disease. Infact, I have a predisposition for it. T. there are a lot of people pulling for you, and we all love you. Don't be afraid to come and vent,and talk, we've got big shoulders we can take it. I'm keeping you in my prayers. Chin up Dahling!!! :smile:
Cache and Dex,
You are truly blessed! Thanks so much for the encouragement after my last pathetic post.
I do apologize for the ending--I hate feeling sorry for myself and causing strife for others due to my lack of prose.........
Just to clarify--I have DISCOID lupus and not SYSTEMIC lupus--big difference. Discoid lupus just affects the skin and not the internal organs as systemic does--(Thank you Lord!)
I'll be ok. Glad to know I have such good friends here. It REALLY matters.
Luv you all,
Tallu
I've often said that there's nothing worse than when an optimist gets depressed. Although when I said it, I meant about me, but something about your last post reminded me of that. I'm an eternal optimist, but there have been occassions when life throws too much at once and I'm down for the count and SO pathetic. Then I find something to do to help my perspective...a nap, drink, long talk w/a friend who likes me no matter how pitiful I am, write it down or something. Then I'm back to normal and it sounds like maybe that's what you may have done as well. I may not understand entirely how you feel, I haven't been through anything remotely similar to what you're going through, but I think I understand being so depressed. You've already come so far in your treatment. From the sounds of things you're handling it much better than I would expect to. It does suck that your treatment has to stretch out that way, but it is treatment, you're headed in the right direction. Also, your Dr. seemed to give you a lot of "mays". I know it's their responsibility to warn you of possible outcomes, but MAYbe it won't be the worse case senario. Even if so, the end of the rainbow is where the gold is. You'll be there before you know it and when you get those completely cancer free results back...you'll breathe your sigh of relief...just fine.
Yeah, Piya--it's really, really tough when the ETERNAL optimist gets the blues LOL
I had a long talk with my cousin last night--she had the same procedure 6 years ago. And since we have the same fair skin and coloring she feels that I will probably come out ok.
She doesn't have lupus, though. So I'm still treading the "doubting waters." LOL
I do a lot of walking and writing in my journal. I talk to people who want to listen and I guess God is the one I most call upon.
I just don't wanna hurt. Chemo was a cake walk for me. But severe sunburn--not being able to hug anyone -- that's gonna hurt me the most :-[
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 17, 2007, 01:15:42 PM
Cache and Dex,
You are truly blessed! Thanks so much for the encouragement after my last pathetic post.
I do apologize for the ending--I hate feeling sorry for myself and causing strife for others due to my lack of prose.........
Just to clarify--I have DISCOID lupus and not SYSTEMIC lupus--big difference. Discoid lupus just affects the skin and not the internal organs as systemic does--(Thank you Lord!)
I'll be ok. Glad to know I have such good friends here. It REALLY matters.
Luv you all,
Tallu
Ya know T. it's OK to feel sorry for yourself. I feel sorry for myself sometimes. I was sooo shocked to hear, that you have so much more treatment left,and the new complications blew me out of my chair. I sat and bawled T. :'( My husband came home from his dentist appointment ,and took one look at me, and said "Oh my God what happened?" I had him read your post, I couldn't even tell him. :no: He sends you his best wishes. Thank God it's Discoid and not Systemic. :yes: The anti nuclear test they did on me, shows a predisposition to systemic. :no: I have a lot of arthritis. You should never feel sorry for posting from your heart T. It is always good to let it out. You have every right to feel angry ,and frustrated,and exhausted. You've been fighting this crap for months, and you must continue to fight T. :yes: We all love you T. :smitten: NOW GET BACK TO WORK KICKIN' THAT CANCER IN THE ASS!!!!! :box:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 17, 2007, 01:48:34 PM
Yeah, Piya--it's really, really tough when the ETERNAL optimist gets the blues LOL
I had a long talk with my cousin last night--she had the same procedure 6 years ago. And since we have the same fair skin and coloring she feels that I will probably come out ok.
She doesn't have lupus, though. So I'm still treading the "doubting waters." LOL
I do a lot of walking and writing in my journal. I talk to people who want to listen and I guess God is the one I most call upon.
I just don't wanna hurt. Chemo was a cake walk for me. But severe sunburn--not being able to hug anyone -- that's gonna hurt me the most :-[
:think: :idea3: Maybe you could layer your clothing, and tell people to hug you gently. :biggrin2:
here's a big Smokeykat hug...
(http://i173.photobucket.com/albums/w62/ziazanne/fatCatHug.jpg)
Aww, Dex--See? See what I've done with my pathetic, sorry-ass posts? I made you cry--oh, I feel like such a shit--I'm so sorry :-\
Please forgive me--I never wanna make anyone cry--unless it's in a sexual nature--and I'm totally monogamous so you don't qualify :biggrin:
But thanks for the support--it means a lot--I'm not giving up, I'm gonna fight!
And if it hurts when someone gives me a hug, so what? It would hurt more if no one wanted to touch me! :yes:
Quote from: smokeykat on December 17, 2007, 09:49:36 PM
here's a big Smokeykat hug...
(http://i173.photobucket.com/albums/w62/ziazanne/fatCatHug.jpg)
Thanks, Smokey -- that really made my day :smitten:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 18, 2007, 01:20:59 PM
Aww, Dex--See? See what I've done with my pathetic, sorry-ass posts? I made you cry--oh, I feel like such a shit--I'm so sorry :-\
Please forgive me--I never wanna make anyone cry--unless it's in a sexual nature--and I'm totally monogamous so you don't qualify :biggrin:
But thanks for the support--it means a lot--I'm not giving up, I'm gonna fight!
And if it hurts when someone gives me a hug, so what? It would hurt more if no one wanted to touch me! :yes:
When somebody is suffering I always cry. Never ever feel bad for posting how you feel T. I'm always here with an open ear LOL!!! I'm glad to hear you're in a fighting mood. I know you would never give up, I just needed to hear you say it. :yes:
Still no calls from Dr. Radiation--guess they've already taken off for the holiday so the results of my Cat Scan probably won't be in until January -- no worries.
But if they leave me a message on my machine saying that they have the results and to call the office before 5 and I don't get home until 7 I'm going down there with an uzi :mad:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 21, 2007, 03:19:31 PM
Still no calls from Dr. Radiation--guess they've already taken off for the holiday so the results of my Cat Scan probably won't be in until January -- no worries.
But if they leave me a message on my machine saying that they have the results and to call the office before 5 and I don't get home until 7 I'm going down there with an uzi :mad:
If you do, blast them a couple times for me. :icon_twisted: It's been one of those days. :no:
Damned right, Kiddo! :wink:
Pretty damned rough to be honest :rolleyes:
The pain pills the doc gave me are about as worthless as aspirin -- I'm supposed to exercise but how the hell can I do that when I can't move! I walk like Fred Sanford and you should see me try to get off the toilet--real YouTube stuff!
Other than that--I guess I'm ok. Attitude is good and that is about 90% of it right there.
So I take lots of hot showers and try to move as much as possible without killing myself.
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 22, 2007, 02:44:59 PM
Pretty damned rough to be honest :rolleyes:
The pain pills the doc gave me are about as worthless as aspirin -- I'm supposed to exercise but how the hell can I do that when I can't move! I walk like Fred Sanford and you should see me try to get off the toilet--real YouTube stuff!
Other than that--I guess I'm ok. Attitude is good and that is about 90% of it right there.
So I take lots of hot showers and try to move as much as possible without killing myself.
I hope you get feeling better soon T. :hug: See that hug didn't hurt did it ? :smile: Last year, I had a virus that gave me such pain I couldn't hardly move. My body hurt sooo bad that everytime I moved my legs, I'd sit and cry. I had no grip in my hands whatsoever. I couldn't even zip my jeans at different times. It was horrible. I had a rash all over my forearms. I went to the doctor and he thought it was Lupus. He did tests, and sent me to a dermatologist. The dermatologist thought it was Lupus or Scleraderma. He did biopsies and sent them to Mayo. They came back inconclusive. This went on for over a month. The doctor treated me with Prednisone. Finally, I got better. Their explanation for all of this, thousands of dollars later..... an unidentified virus. :spooked: I've had lingering side effects, such as muscle weakness, thinning hair, discolored fingernail beds, and diminished grip in my hands.So, I'm not sure what the hell happened, but I found out about 7 years ago, I have a predisposition to Systemic Lupus, and initially when I got the virus, they thought it was the onset of full blown Lupus. See, that's why I hate doctors, most of them don't have a clue. :mad: So, I understand the frustration and depression. Chin Up Dahling!!!!!!!! You're gonna whip this in no time flat. :hug:
Oh, I'm gonna be fine--not worried a bit. I'm a little tired cuz I gave my boss the rest of the week off and I've had to do his work and mine but that's my only complaint today!
I didn't know you went through all that, dahling :( Poor thing! Especially when you work with your hands all the time -- that loss of grip must suck!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 27, 2007, 01:05:47 PM
Oh, I'm gonna be fine--not worried a bit. I'm a little tired cuz I gave my boss the rest of the week off and I've had to do his work and mine but that's my only complaint today!
I didn't know you went through all that, dahling :( Poor thing! Especially when you work with your hands all the time -- that loss of grip must suck!
It was frustrating as hell to not have any grip in my hands. :mad: I couldn't use a can opener to save my ass. There were times when the pain was sooo bad, I couldn't even get out of a chair by myself. Hubby had to help me. That was soo frustrating sometimes I'd just sit and bawl. Thank God that's over. I hope I never get that again. :no:
That's exactly how I am when I don't have any pain meds -- I'm really beginning to hate pills :rant:
I think the key is exercise--and I gotta find out what I need to take or eat to build up my bone marrow. I really think that is the reason for the pain.
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 01, 2008, 09:47:48 AM
That's exactly how I am when I don't have any pain meds -- I'm really beginning to hate pills :rant:
I think the key is exercise--and I gotta find out what I need to take or eat to build up my bone marrow. I really think that is the reason for the pain.
No pain meds? :spooked: I think excercise helps a lot if you're able to do it. :yes:
I'm taking glucosamine and chondroitin tabs along with Aleve a couple times a day until I see the doc on Monday. Then he'll probably give me some pain meds. I hope I don't have to take them but it's nice to have on hand.
Speaking of hand......got mine x-rayed today--we'll see on Mon if I have a stress fracture or not :rolleyes:
Oh yeah, almost forgot--I start radiation on Monday--WHOO HOO :rolleyes:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 04, 2008, 02:43:32 PM
I'm taking glucosamine and chondroitin tabs along with Aleve a couple times a day until I see the doc on Monday. Then he'll probably give me some pain meds. I hope I don't have to take them but it's nice to have on hand.
Speaking of hand......got mine x-rayed today--we'll see on Mon if I have a stress fracture or not :rolleyes:
Stress fracture? :spooked: Yikes. what did you do? I wasn't sure if you had started radiation or not. I'm sure you'll handle it smashingly Dahling. :yes:
:yes:
Quote from: Palehorse on January 05, 2008, 11:24:24 AM
:yes:
:yes: This is :music1: Suuuuuuper T!!!! :music1: :super:
It's mid-way to the end of a quite a long trip--so that's the good thing.
I'm still kinda scared of getting burned and scarred--and then there is the reconstruction surgery.
You just get to the point that you're so sick of doctors and pills and bills and co-pays and fighting with the insurance company that it really drags you down.
But I'll keep my chin up--both of them :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 05, 2008, 01:29:14 PM
It's mid-way to the end of a quite a long trip--so that's the good thing.
I'm still kinda scared of getting burned and scarred--and then there is the reconstruction surgery.
You just get to the point that you're so sick of doctors and pills and bills and co-pays and fighting with the insurance company that it really drags you down.
But I'll keep my chin up--both of them :biggrin:
So, how long until they make your fake boobie? I've always thought that it's amazing, what they can do with reconstructive surgery. I know you'll keep your double chin up T. LOL!! :hug:
Radiation is a bummer :-[
The staff have the personality of hairballs.
You have to lie completely still and shut up while they zap you. It's kinda lonely but only takes about 20 mins.
I have to go daily for two weeks straight and then I get a week off.
I have finished one full week and am really not too burned.
New boobie will be after radiation is done--I will have a total of 28 treatments.
I will go see the plastic surgeon when all is done and be re-evaluated for the tram flap procedure -- that's where they make your new boob out of your tummy fat.
I'm gonna have one helluva big boob ! :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 12, 2008, 01:41:52 PM
Radiation is a bummer :-[
The staff have the personality of hairballs.
You have to lie completely still and shut up while they zap you. It's kinda lonely but only takes about 20 mins.
I have to go daily for two weeks straight and then I get a week off.
I have finished one full week and am really not too burned.
New boobie will be after radiation is done--I will have a total of 28 treatments.
I will go see the plastic surgeon when all is done and be re-evaluated for the tram flap procedure -- that's where they make your new boob out of your tummy fat.
I'm gonna have one helluva big boob ! :biggrin:
:rotfl: :rotfl: :think: :idea3: Maybe, you better have them take the other boob too, just to make sure they get the size right, for both of them. That way you can have an entirely new set. :biggrin:
I have to admit the tummy thing makes it sound like a lot less of a horrible experience. :biggrin:
Oh and something about the way you said, "lay there and shut up" gives me mental pictures of someone needing to remind you of that. (I have that problem sometimes and I'm not getting treatment for anything) :biggrin:. Drips! Seriously you'd think they'd want to cheer everyone up.
Tallu, you're amazing. :yes:
Awww--thanks PIYA--need all the support I can get here ...........
Got to see Dr. Alex (the yummy oncologist--MEOW!!) TODAY -- look, I can't stop SCREAMING LOL!
Anyway, he asked me if I had any peach fuzz growing back and I said yes, do you want to see it?
He said, sure.
So I got off of the exam table and started to unbutton my pants :eek: and he just died laughing!
We both had a good chuckle and I whipped my wig off and let him rub my head ......
He could have gone a lot lower for all I care--I won't tell!
And I know you guys won't either :wink:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 14, 2008, 06:40:57 PM
Awww--thanks PIYA--need all the support I can get here ...........
Got to see Dr. Alex (the yummy oncologist--MEOW!!) TODAY -- look, I can't stop SCREAMING LOL!
Anyway, he asked me if I had any peach fuzz growing back and I said yes, do you want to see it?
He said, sure.
So I got off of the exam table and started to unbutton my pants :eek: and he just died laughing!
We both had a good chuckle and I whipped my wig off and let him rub my head ......
He could have gone a lot lower for all I care--I won't tell!
And I know you guys won't either :wink:
Ummmmm......................I think you'd be so happy that everybody within a block or two would have heard ya!!! :party: :beer: :trustme: :food12: :food15: :shots: :food4:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 14, 2008, 06:40:57 PM
Awww--thanks PIYA--need all the support I can get here ...........
Got to see Dr. Alex (the yummy oncologist--MEOW!!) TODAY -- look, I can't stop SCREAMING LOL!
Anyway, he asked me if I had any peach fuzz growing back and I said yes, do you want to see it?
He said, sure.
So I got off of the exam table and started to unbutton my pants :eek: and he just died laughing!
We both had a good chuckle and I whipped my wig off and let him rub my head ......
He could have gone a lot lower for all I care--I won't tell!
And I know you guys won't either :wink:
:o :spooked: :o :spooked: Jesum Crow T!!! Why didn't you just rape him while you had the chance? LMAO!!!!! I think the radiation is making you horny. :spooked: I would have paid good money, to see the look on your doctor's face. Priceless!!!! You gett'em baby!!!! :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl:
~Giggle~
I know I'm bad but hey--what the f, right?
When you're a person in my shoes, you look for fun anyway you can get it -- even if it's WRONG! :icon_twisted:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 15, 2008, 01:05:59 PM
~Giggle~
I know I'm bad but hey--what the f, right?
When you're a person in my shoes, you look for fun anyway you can get it -- even if it's WRONG! :icon_twisted:
Your doctor probably would have, if it wasn't for that pesty ethics thing. :yes: Those damn ethics get in the way everytime. :kickcan:
Quote from: followsthewolf on January 14, 2008, 07:41:00 PM
Ummmmm......................I think you'd be so happy that everybody within a block or two would have heard ya!!! :party: :beer: :trustme: :food12: :food15: :shots: :food4:
Just a block or two? Wolfie, you underestimate me, dahling :wink:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 17, 2008, 06:45:32 PM
Just a block or two? Wolfie, you underestimate me, dahling :wink:
The moan heard round the world!!! :razz: :biggrin:
More like shrieks of amour! Kinda a cross between a coyote and Joan Rivers. :spooked:
:spooked: :yes: :yes: :yes: :yes: :yes: :yes: :yes: :yes: :biggrin: :biggrin: :biggrin: :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 18, 2008, 09:03:59 AM
More like shrieks of amour! Kinda a cross between a coyote and Joan Rivers. :spooked:
:spooked: Joan Rivers? Can we talk? He he, have you seen her on the Gieco commercial? It's very fitting for her. LOL!!!! :yes:
That bitch should have a BEARD with as many facelifts she's had :eek:
I think she went a tad overboard--she looks like a mannequin!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 20, 2008, 09:25:28 AM
That bitch should have a BEARD with as many facelifts she's had :eek:
I think she went a tad overboard--she looks like a mannequin!
Actually, I think she looks like The Joker from Batman. :jester: Have you seen that chick that had surgery to have her face sculpted like a cat? :spooked: Jesum Crow!!! :spooked: I love cats, but I wouldn't want to look like one!!! :eek:
So sad that growing older is becoming a sin in this society.
Ain't nuthin wrong with wrinkles -- as long as they're earned honestly :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 20, 2008, 05:43:53 PM
So sad that growing older is becoming a sin in this society.
Ain't nuthin wrong with wrinkles -- as long as they're earned honestly :biggrin:
I've started to get them. A while back I decided to let my hair grow out to its natural color. I've always dyed it blond. It's med brown and I had never seen it its real color. Much to my surprise I have some grey hairs . :spooked: I was blindsided. I never would have thought I'd have grey hair at 37 Jesum Crow!!! :spooked: The past year has been hard on me, grey hair, wrinkles, and worsening arthritis. :spooked: GOOD TIMES!!!! :rolleyes: Gotta love getting old!!! :rolleyes:
I just wanna live long enough to flash my AARP card and tell everyone to shut up and give me my damned discount! :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 25, 2008, 11:53:29 AM
I just wanna live long enough to flash my AARP card and tell everyone to shut up and give me my damned discount! :biggrin:
:wheel:
~Giggle~ That's right! Although I would prefer one of those Scooter chairs!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 27, 2008, 10:23:07 AM
~Giggle~ That's right! Although I would prefer one of those Scooter chairs!
How about a bike like mine? You would look uber cool like me. :biggrin:
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> :bike:
Radiation SUCKED today. The computer that operates the radiation machine was acting up and we had to wait for almost two hours to get our treatments.
The techs were even snippier than usual AND the machine was out of diet Dr. Pepper --- :mad:
I just can't have cancer under these conditions :razz:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 28, 2008, 06:30:39 PM
Radiation SUCKED today. The computer that operates the radiation machine was acting up and we had to wait for almost two hours to get our treatments.
The techs were even snippier than usual AND the machine was out of diet Dr. Pepper --- :mad:
I just can't have cancer under these conditions :razz:
Damn, that was not a GOOD TIME. :no: You should've told them to "get a new computer,and stock that damn pop machine once in a while, while they're at it." And tell those bitches "their attitude is not enhancing the pleasure of your experience, while your in their care". LMFAO!!! Can you imagine the look on their faces? :biggrin: Priceless!!! :biggrin:
We had a meeting of the minds today -- I told them that I was not going to get a treatment until I saw the doc first to discuss the condition of my skin.
When I saw the doc I told him I was not going to return until I had an appt. with the nutritionist.
I then told him that I was not going to receive any more treatments until he explained what the problem was with the software and what he was doing to make sure it wouldn't happen again.
I think he's a goob :rolleyes: And I'm considering stopping my treatments.
Gonna sleep on it.
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 29, 2008, 03:31:48 PM
We had a meeting of the minds today -- I told them that I was not going to get a treatment until I saw the doc first to discuss the condition of my skin.
When I saw the doc I told him I was not going to return until I had an appt. with the nutritionist.
I then told him that I was not going to receive any more treatments until he explained what the problem was with the software and what he was doing to make sure it wouldn't happen again.
I think he's a goob :rolleyes: And I'm considering stopping my treatments.
Gonna sleep on it.
I emailed you T. :yes:
Well, I missed three radiation treatments last week. Not intentionally--believe it or not!
I've been really bulking up on my fiber and apparently gave myself a bowel obstruction. :spooked: Without sharing too much, let's just say that I was cramping so badly that I couldn't stand erect let alone drive.
Anyway, taking matters to correct the situation and I should be flowing nicely in a day or two.
Since I missed a total of 5 days of radiation I think that I will just suck it up and take on two straight weeks of it and get the shit over with.
Then it's the big SPA DAY!! Oh man am I looking forward to getting slathered in mud and seaweed and anything else they wanna slap on me! :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 02, 2008, 11:48:14 AM
Well, I missed three radiation treatments last week. Not intentionally--believe it or not!
I've been really bulking up on my fiber and apparently gave myself a bowel obstruction. :spooked: Without sharing too much, let's just say that I was cramping so badly that I couldn't stand erect let alone drive.
Anyway, taking matters to correct the situation and I should be flowing nicely in a day or two.
Since I missed a total of 5 days of radiation I think that I will just suck it up and take on two straight weeks of it and get the shit over with.
Then it's the big SPA DAY!! Oh man am I looking forward to getting slathered in mud and seaweed and anything else they wanna slap on me! :biggrin:
Hope everything comes out OK on that bowel obstruction.~giggle giggle~ Get it... comes out OK.... he,he. That spa sounds wonderful ,and gooey. The closest thing I get to a spa, is by letting Calgon take me away!!! in the tub. Throw in the SpongeBob scrubbie, and my floating, squeaky, Mr. Bubble, and I got a paaaarty!!! GOOD TIMES!!! :bath:
Damn, you're a cheap date, Dex! That's why we love ya! :smitten:
Yeah, it's getting better -- I can walk again! Whoo Hooo!
Only 6 treatments left!!!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 05, 2008, 03:26:51 PM
Damn, you're a cheap date, Dex! That's why we love ya! :smitten:
Yeah, it's getting better -- I can walk again! Whoo Hooo!
Only 6 treatments left!!!
I'm glad you're feeling better T. :yes: Only 6 more treatments!!! WoooHooo!!!! :sofa: :heart2: :bouquet:
~Giggle~ Dex, you can't live without your emoticons, can you? :biggrin:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 07, 2008, 02:44:15 PM
~Giggle~ Dex, you can't live without your emoticons, can you? :biggrin:
Nope!!! It's extremely difficult for me to do any posting without them. My email drives me crazy, because I can't do emoticons on it. :biggrin:
Yahoo email has emoticons--and it's free! :wink:
Dex you pick the best of the bunch. They suit your personality. Congrats Tallu!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 08, 2008, 02:08:19 PM
Yahoo email has emoticons--and it's free! :wink:
They do? WoooHooo!!!! :sofa: I'll have to check that out. :yes:
Quote from: PIYA on February 08, 2008, 05:23:18 PM
Dex you pick the best of the bunch. They suit your personality. Congrats Tallu!
Thanks PIYA, I try to match them with the situation at hand. :biggrin:
Quote from: PIYA on February 08, 2008, 05:23:18 PM
Congrats Tallu!
Thanks, dahling. What does the little cell-phone icon mean in the header of your post?
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 09, 2008, 11:48:49 AM
Thanks, dahling. What does the little cell-phone icon mean in the header of your post?
I think it means she's posting from a blackberrie? :confused:
I was posting from my cell phone, but I don't have a blackberry. I believe I was waiting somewhere or something and logged on to kill time.
I didn't even know you could post from a cell. I tried to maneuver around my cousin's blackberry once and got very lost quite quickly! I just need the basics for my simple-minded ass! :razz:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 10, 2008, 05:43:41 PM
I didn't even know you could post from a cell. I tried to maneuver around my cousin's blackberry once and got very lost quite quickly! I just need the basics for my simple-minded ass! :razz:
I didn't know you could post from a cell phone either.I don't know a thing about anything. I'm more simple minded assholier than you T. :razz:
LMAO "assholier-than-thou"...I don't know why, but Dex's comment made me think of that phrase it's not directed at anyone in particular. :biggrin:
It's nice. When I'm at one of my daughter's practices, doctor's office or something like that, I can hop in and see what's going on to take my mind off impatiently waiting. Sometimes I pop in from work too. That way, I don't have to use the work computer to see what's going on.
Quote from: PIYA on February 10, 2008, 10:08:29 PM
LMAO "assholier-than-thou"...I don't know why, but Dex's comment made me think of that phrase it's not directed at anyone in particular. :biggrin:
It's nice. When I'm at one of my daughter's practices, doctor's office or something like that, I can hop in and see what's going on to take my mind off impatiently waiting. Sometimes I pop in from work too. That way, I don't have to use the work computer to see what's going on.
I love making up new words and phrases. :biggrin:
Here are a few of my favorites....
Disasterfy >>> Disaster and catastrophe
Fag a Beefy>>>> well you know that word + beef
DingleMiester>>>> king of the dingleberries
The Ratsassanator>>>> the person who takes out the people who don't give a ratsass
Foobarred>>>> this means when something gets f**ed up
Wrecked>>>> I use this word for anytime something gets messed up>>> ex... When coming in from the rain.... man, my hair is wrecked, or when something gets broken... the cats wrecked the Christmas tree.
Wreckailment>>>> this is a wreck/train derailment
Derailed>>> I use this term when a plan goes wrong ex... man, you have derailed
Whopperjawed >>> when something isn't lined up correctly
caddywompas>>> same as whopperjawed
There are many many more. :biggrin:
~Giggle~ you kill me, Dex!
I have some too:
Skimmy -- to hurry up
Schnortle -- loud nose sniffing
Spanky - the ATM
Hickeyboo -- same as a "thingy"
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 11, 2008, 06:01:46 PM
~Giggle~ you kill me, Dex!
I have some too:
Skimmy -- to hurry up
Schnortle -- loud nose sniffing
Spanky - the ATM
Hickeyboo -- same as a "thingy"
When I'm speaking of Pugsly, I use the term 'snart'. That's a snore and a fart at the same time. The little guy does that A LOT!!! I also use the word 'kersmash' a lot and 'kerbang','kerplooy' and 'whatchamadingy'.
:biggrin:
I think foobarred in the form of FUBARed is a military acronym which means pretty much the same thing that you said - effed up beyond all recognition. ;D
I gotta know how "spanky" and the atm came about. :biggrin:
(btw - sorry for the hijack - this might make a fun thread though)
Quote from: PIYA on February 11, 2008, 11:04:51 PM
:biggrin:
I think foobarred in the form of FUBARed is a military acronym which means pretty much the same thing that you said - effed up beyond all recognition. ;D
I gotta know how "spanky" and the atm came about. :biggrin:
(btw - sorry for the hijack - this might make a fun thread though)
Most of the threads I end up on ,become humorous for some reason. :jester:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 11, 2008, 06:01:46 PM
~Giggle~ you kill me, Dex!
I have some too:
Skimmy -- to hurry up
Schnortle -- loud nose sniffing
Spanky - the ATM
Hickeyboo -- same as a "thingy"
Tango Uniform!
(dead. lying on your back. tits up.
Quote from: PIYA on February 11, 2008, 11:04:51 PM
I gotta know how "spanky" and the atm came about. :biggrin:
Glad you asked cuz it's a funny story.
When ATMs first came about in Nashville the banks named them. There was "Annie" the anytime teller and "Susie" was the name Sunburst Bank gave their ATM. Hubby and I thought it was hysterical.
Anyway, when we moved to MS the ATMs didn't have names so hubby dubbed them all, "Spanky." :biggrin:
:biggrin:
A story..not as funny...when ATM's first came out in my college town they were all called "OWL" machines. I have NO idea why "OWL". Maybe it was an acronym or something. All I cared about was the cash inside. Anyway, when I moved to Maryland ... out of habit I asked someone where the nearest OWL machine was. The look in their face, was priceless. ;D
looks like it's almost over - how are you feeling Tallulah?
Quote from: PIYA on February 13, 2008, 12:54:07 AM
:biggrin:
A story..not as funny...when ATM's first came out in my college town they were all called "OWL" machines. I have NO idea why "OWL". Maybe it was an acronym or something. All I cared about was the cash inside. Anyway, when I moved to Maryland ... out of habit I asked someone where the nearest OWL machine was. The look in their face, was priceless. ;D
Kinda sounds like when I first moved to the South--I asked someone where the pop machine was. Had no idea that everything was a "coke." :yes:
Quote from: mustang sally on February 13, 2008, 01:49:56 PM
looks like it's almost over - how are you feeling Tallulah?
Hey, Sally!
I'm good. Kinda burned and uncomfortable but ok. They're zapping me around my collar bone and a little up on the neck which makes wearing certain clothes uncomfy. They say they're trying to zap my lymph nodes. Personally, I think they're all nuclear sadists! :razz: No sense of humor, either.
I had to get my Mediport flushed today so I had to go to the chemo people for that. It's like night and day. They're so funny and considerate and genuine. Nothing like the radiation folks. Don't know why that is. I think on my last day I'm gonna slip them all roofies!
I got a script for Darvocet just to have it. You never know when you're going to need it and it's nice to have on hand for emergencies.
I don't go back to radiation til next Thursday so I'm hoping to heal up by then. Should be finished by March! :biggrin:
Oh GAWD! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO FRIGGGIN ITCHY! The sunburn is healing and I'm about to scratch myself to death--anybody got any handcuffs? :spooked:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 15, 2008, 05:00:45 PM
Oh GAWD! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO FRIGGGIN ITCHY! The sunburn is healing and I'm about to scratch myself to death--anybody got any handcuffs? :spooked:
*fishes around in purse* Here you go T, I've got it covered. :sneaky: :biggrin:
I don't know if you're allowed to use this or not, but benedryl gel works great for sunburn itch or any alergic reaction.
Quote from: PIYA on February 15, 2008, 06:24:39 PM
I don't know if you're allowed to use this or not, but benedryl gel works great for sunburn itch or any alergic reaction.
Hey, I bet that would work good, or maybe something Aloevera based. :yes:
I wonder if taking Benadryl by mouth would also help with the itchy sensation?? :think:
Quote from: Sunny on February 16, 2008, 07:44:17 AM
I wonder if taking Benadryl by mouth would also help with the itchy sensation?? :think:
It works for everything Sunny. I take it at bedtime to help me sleep. I have had chronic insomnia since I was a child. :yes:
That would be a simpler option, huh? The downside to that (for me) would be the sleepy side effect.
Quote from: PIYA on February 16, 2008, 06:21:11 PM
That would be a simpler option, huh? The downside to that (for me) would be the sleepy side effect.
I'm lucky if (4) of them put me out. I never sleep deep enough to have sleepy side effects from it. :no: If a mouse farted it would wake me up. :biggrin:
Quote from: PIYA on February 15, 2008, 06:24:39 PM
I don't know if you're allowed to use this or not, but benedryl gel works great for sunburn itch or any alergic reaction.
I have a special radiation gel that I'm supposed to use--it's like aloe but not as sticky and it does nothing for the itchiness :-\
I'm not supposed to use anything else topically because it will smear the "chalk marks" they have decorated my chest area with.
I do have a script for Atarax that is used for itching but it makes me sleepy.
OK, peoples -- I have 7 more treatments to go before I'm through with the crisping process!
Had to get zapped today and the doctor took one look at my chest and the water blisters forming and asked, "Are you in any pain, dear?" Let's just say that he's lucky I didn't have my umbrella with me. :rolleyes:
The area that gives me the most grief is my breast plate/bone, whatever. He explained that the reason for this is the way I'm getting zapped at certain angles. Because the tumor was so deeply embedded in the breast tissue, and very close to the chest wall, they're trying to get as deep as possible.
They wouldn't be able to do this if it were my left breast because they can't zap that close to the heart! Man, this is dangerous stuff, ain't it? :eek:
So .............I got some pain medicine and some more gel and only 7 more zappings to go!
(http://www.clicksmilies.com/s1106/mittelgrosse/medium-smiley-075.gif)
A friend of mine just had skin cancer removed from that area, superficial really, but she's completely fried and blistered ... looked painful...so I can imagine how bad yours must be.
I feel bad saying, "only" seven more treatments when they must seem like torture, but I am happy that you're getting so close to being finished w/that stuff.
Not torture at all -- now it would be worse if all of my nerve endings grew back in that area! During the mastectomy, the surgeon cauterized a good bit of the area so I'm still numb in portions of the skin--that doesn't do anything for the chest wall pain, of course but it could be worse!
At least I don't have to return to chemo like a lot of the other patients do. I feel sorry for them. Some of them are so over it--I just want to run over and give them all a big hug, poor things! :'(
OK--6 more treatments to go! Damn I'm excited! I can't wait to find out how long I have to wait to get my new bewb! :yes:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 22, 2008, 04:35:52 PM
OK--6 more treatments to go! Damn I'm excited! I can't wait to find out how long I have to wait to get my new bewb! :yes:
I'm excited about your new boob too!!! :sofa:
5 more treatments to go! Would have been four if I didn't miss one yesterday :rant:
Not my fault--I waited (along with about 20 other folks) for an hour before they came out and said that they were so backed up we may want to consider coming back after lunch--I went home.
Anyway--had my FINAL vampire visit today and if all goes well, (Pleeze, God!!) I'll be finished next Tuesday!!
I wonder if I can type when I'm drunk :biggrin:
They also told me that the fatigue can last up to SIX months after treatments end! Lordy, I'm so wiped out now and I can't imagine this lasting so long :no: Hopefully I'll be like I always am--completely different from the norm and will get my energy back quickly. Hell, I have to -- I got psychotic pets to contend with day in and day out--LOL :eek:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on February 26, 2008, 01:40:38 PM
They also told me that the fatigue can last up to SIX months after treatments end! Lordy, I'm so wiped out now and I can't imagine this lasting so long :no: Hopefully I'll be like I always am--completely different from the norm and will get my energy back quickly. Hell, I have to -- I got psychotic pets to contend with day in and day out--LOL :eek:
LOL!!! Sounds like you're on your way to "Wellsville". :yes: How are the doggies getting along? :biggrin: