Oh, isn't this the question we all ask ourselves? Even if it's just a speeding ticket. Why me?
No answer for that. It took me a while to realize that God wasn't angry with me. Maybe I just wasn't taking good enough care of my body.
One idiot told me that if I had children I wouldn't be going through this now. (Believe it or not, stats show that women who have given birth lower their chances of getting breast cancer by 40%)
Genetics? Maybe. But the only person in my family who has gone through this is a first cousin on my mother's side and her breast cancer was far more severe than mine--went all over her lymph nodes and she endured chemo and radiation for 2 years. She is now cancer free and has been for 6 years now :biggrin:
Be prepared to ask "why me" and to hear that from other ladies going through this.
My answer is always: "Maybe God wants to challenge you." Or I like to quote that fabulous spiritual from "The Color Purple" God's Trying To Get Your Attention!
sorry to hear that you are having to go thru this. Just keep a positive attitude and I am sure you will be fine. They have so many new ways of dealing with cancer now-a-days and I am sure one will work for you. I will keep you in my prayers. They are the strongest medicine I know.
AMEN Kittycat!
Yes, I am a very spiritual person and have quite a few conversations with God on a daily basis.
God, combined with the support of family and friends, and, of course, my FABULOUS hubby make me feel so lucky to be here.
Thanks for your input and prayers, Smokey--means a lot!
Cheers!
Tallu
My auntie often uses the infamous words of Mother Teresa:
I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish
that He didn't trust me so much.
You CAN handle this, dahling.
And another Mother Teresa quote:
It is impossible to walk rapidly and be unhappy.
I don't see anything slowing you down, woman! :smile:
:smitten:
Not asking this question now that Tammy Faye has passed. I watched her last interview with Larry King and although she looked horrible and could barely talk I was so proud of her bravery!
Poor thing--I hope she is finally at peace..........
Quote from: tallulahdahling on July 22, 2007, 12:20:35 PM
Not asking this question now that Tammy Faye has passed. I watched her last interview with Larry King and although she looked horrible and could barely talk I was so proud of her bravery!
Poor thing--I hope she is finally at peace..........
Ya know I only made it thru half of that interview, and couldn't watch it all. I've never followed anything about her life. I just sat and bawled. OMG that poor woman. I thought she was going to die during the interview. How she had the strength I will never know. At least she is at peace now, and her suffering is over. :yes:
Her cancer had manifested itself to take over her organs, so she was in a lot of pain and the chemo wasn't helping so she just made her peace with God and tried to remain as comfortable as possible during her last days.
What a shame ... but she fully admitted that she ignored warning signs and by the time she got to the doctor it was too late.
We all need to get colon screenings after age 40!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 12, 2007, 09:24:18 AM
Her cancer had manifested itself to take over her organs, so she was in a lot of pain and the chemo wasn't helping so she just made her peace with God and tried to remain as comfortable as possible during her last days.
What a shame ... but she fully admitted that she ignored warning signs and by the time she got to the doctor it was too late.
We all need to get colon screenings after age 40!
Your right. I'm one of those idiots that has good insurance benefits from my husbands job, but I wont go to the doctor for nothing. I should I have health problems. About 6 years ago I started with a new doctor. She seemed great. I had just started a new job, and mentioned that my feet were hurting awful bad. She's like I got something real good for that Vicadon. So, she wrote a prescription for 180 with 6 refills. So, you can probably figure out what happened, Dex got addicted big time!!!! She kept refilling them like that for 2 years. I was up to 20 a day,and these were the highest dosage they have. I worked and did a great job, I drove fine, no accidents, life was awesome, until I ran out of pills. My husband was on Vicadon for his back. My doctors husband was my husbands doctor. He was liberal with his prescriptions too. My husband never abused his Vicadon. It got to the point that I'd take all of mine, and get into his. He had to start hiding his, and by this time I had quit my job( nothing to do with the Vicadon, we got a new manager I hated ). I'd call him at work and beg him to tell me where his Vicadon was. He'd resist but I kept calling and begging him, so he'd finally give in. I was a pathetic addict. As soon as my doctor realized( like she didn't know) I got a registered letter in the mail, saying she'd no longer be treating me. What a shock!!! So, when I ran out that was it. I detoxed at home for 3 days, and never went back to Vicadon. I was addicted for the better part of 3 years. So, now when somebody asks me, if she's a good doctor, I tell them she's the biggest pill pusher in the area, and go somewhere else. Granted she didn't force the pills down my throat, she made it way too easy to get addicted. :yes:
Oh Dex, honey!
I'm so sorry--what a horrible, irresponsible doctor--NO ONE would ever give scripts out like that around here--hell you practically have to get three opinions to get some muscle relaxers--I'm serious!
I'm so proud of you for getting off of that stuff--it will eat up your liver faster than scotch--unless it's single malt--LOL!
Seriously, I've been a nicotine addict for years and if I ever were to pick up another ciggie it would be curtains for me, so I understand addiction.
Take advantage of hubby's benefits and go to the doc and GET THE WORKS. Don't wait til you're an old fart--do it while you're young!
OK--Tallu has fallen off of her soapbox.
Back to your normally scheduled postings, please :razz:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 13, 2007, 05:31:43 PM
Oh Dex, honey!
I'm so sorry--what a horrible, irresponsible doctor--NO ONE would ever give scripts out like that around here--hell you practically have to get three opinions to get some muscle relaxers--I'm serious!
I'm so proud of you for getting off of that stuff--it will eat up your liver faster than scotch--unless it's single malt--LOL!
Seriously, I've been a nicotine addict for years and if I ever were to pick up another ciggie it would be curtains for me, so I understand addiction.
Take advantage of hubby's benefits and go to the doc and GET THE WORKS. Don't wait til you're an old fart--do it while you're young!
OK--Tallu has fallen off of her soapbox.
Back to your normally scheduled postings, please :razz:
I know it's crazy, but I lost all faith in doctors when that happened. I thought the world of her, and it really hurt me. She had an incident not long after she dumped me.She had a lot of addicted patients. I guess she wouldn't refill some man's Vicadon prescription, he showed up at her office, and held a gun to her head,until she wrote one out. :spooked: After he left she called the cops and he was arrested. Don't know what he got out of it, but she got security doors put in, and you had to be buzzed in at the desk LOL!!! It's bad to say, but that was her own fault, In a way she kind of got hers so to speak. :icon_twisted:
Well, that shouldn't be happening anymore. They (meaning the FDA) have developed Big Brother monitoring system where people who try to get multiple scripts by taking them to other pharmacies and visiting various doctors can't get their scripts filled til the required due date.
Happened to me yesterday--I had a script filled for Ambien CR on July 22. and a diff doctor wrote me a script for them and I took them to another pharmacy--not to scam--it was just closer. And they had it in the database and said I couldn't get the script filled til the 22nd of this month.
They're just playing it safe.. Guess they have to since the docs sure as hell aren't, right?
Well, in all fairness...it's not just the doctor's responsibility or physician malpractice in all situations (actually, in *most* situations). There are many "system savvy" folks in our society who have learned to work the system...hence the concept, doctor shopping (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doctor_shopping).
Accountability needs to fall on all parties involved...substance dependence is misfortunate, but a reality that society is in the process of slowly dealing with.
True--I can understand with narcotics--but Ambien is non-narcotic. Playing it safe is EXACTLY what they're doing and I'm glad they're policing the docs. Somebody has to. Because the dopers obviously cannot.
I mean, how many SPAM emails do you get everyday from some flimsy company trying to send you cheaper versions of Viagra, Valium, Oxycontin, et. al.?
Tough world out there. Sure has changed from my generation when all everyone wanted was pot and booze! :'(
Man, be very careful with that Ambien. They say it's not addictive, but it is.One pill at bed time works for a while, and you reach a plato, and you have to take more. Been there ,done that with Ambien. Same doctor as up above. Luckily, when I told her I was taking 2 at bed time,she cut me off right now. Please be careful with those, it will save you some grief. :yes: :smile:
Yep...Ambien & other sleep-aids may not be narcotics, but they can definitely become habit-forming...or rather, it's easy to develop a "dependency" on them. :-\
If insomina becomes "chronic", there's generally something secondary underlying the etiology.
Quote from: Sunny on August 14, 2007, 09:06:16 PM
Yep...Ambien & other sleep-aids may not be narcotics, but they can definitely become habit-forming...or rather, it's easy to develop a "dependency" on them. :-\
If insomina becomes "chronic", there's generally something secondary underlying the etiology.
I've had insomnia my entire life. My mind won't turn off. I think my bad childhood has a lot to do with it. :yes:
Quote from: Dexter Morgan on August 14, 2007, 05:19:02 PM
Man, be very careful with that Ambien. They say it's not addictive, but it is.One pill at bed time works for a while, and you reach a plato, and you have to take more. Been there ,done that with Ambien. Same doctor as up above. Luckily, when I told her I was taking 2 at bed time,she cut me off right now. Please be careful with those, it will save you some grief. :yes: :smile:
Oh, I hear ya. I don't take it every night. Usually during the chemo weeks I can't sleep or wake up sweating. When I don't have to be at work at 6 am I just tough it out or drink some warm milk. Thanks for the concern--I need all the help I can get from the 'PROS' LOL!! :biggrin:
Quote from: Dexter Morgan on August 14, 2007, 09:09:36 PM
I've had insomnia my entire life. My mind won't turn off. I think my bad childhood has a lot to do with it. :yes:
If you ever want to talk--quietly--my email is tallulah.dahling@yahoo.com
Everything confidential. I just know how important it is to talk--if you want to, Dexie. If you don't that's kewl too. Just want to let you know I'm here and that there is nothing that I do not understand :yes:
Luv ya,
Tallu
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 15, 2007, 02:06:15 PM
If you ever want to talk--quietly--my email is tallulah.dahling@yahoo.com
Everything confidential. I just know how important it is to talk--if you want to, Dexie. If you don't that's kewl too. Just want to let you know I'm here and that there is nothing that I do not understand :yes:
Luv ya,
Tallu
You are soo sweet. :smile: A nice lady like you doesn't deserve to have cancer. Nobody deserves to have cancer, but it breaks my heart when somebody as sweet and nice as you gets it. :'( I know by reading what you write here, that you are one tough gal. :smile: I will definately email you. Did you try mint for the neusea??? When I was young I used to get the nervous gag gags, I never went anywhere without mint.LOL!!!! :puke:
Well, cancer isn't choosy. There are lots of nasty people who got it too! I just get to hang with a better group of folks! :biggrin:
I am not having the nausea issues with this round of chemo--my energy is just completely zapped, though :rolleyes:
I do drink mint tea every morning at work and it gives me a lift and keeps the tummy happy.
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 16, 2007, 04:25:04 AM
Well, cancer isn't choosy. There are lots of nasty people who got it too! I just get to hang with a better group of folks! :biggrin:
I am not having the nausea issues with this round of chemo--my energy is just completely zapped, though :rolleyes:
I do drink mint tea every morning at work and it gives me a lift and keeps the tummy happy.
I think mint is a good cure all. Some people actually bathe in it,and soak their feet in it. I have mint foot spray that helps to keep your feet cool. I think I got it from Avon. :yes: I always carry Tic Tacs with me when I work. I talk to the people I wait on,and my mouth gets real dry. I can't leave my register every time I get thirsty, so I pop Tic Tacs. The spearmint and cinnamon are my favorites. I'm glad you're not nauseous this time. Hopefully you'll get your energy back in no time. :yes: :smile:
Energy is pretty good but now everything I eat or gives me heartburn. It's a normal side-effect of the chemo but I'm sure it will get better before they zap me again on the 27th!
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 20, 2007, 04:06:07 PM
Energy is pretty good but now everything I eat or gives me heartburn. It's a normal side-effect of the chemo but I'm sure it will get better before they zap me again on the 27th!
It seems kind of crazy,you just get feeling better, and then they zap you again. How many more treatments do you have left?? Do they do them once a week?? I'm glad you have some energy,it's hard when you're soo tired, you don't feel like doing anything. Illness can be draining on the body and the mind. I was sick a lot as a child. I had problems with my heart. I spent months on bedrest, and had to follow a really strict no fat, no salt diet. It was really hard because I was a child.I think that's why I just eat whatever sounds good to me.You only live once,and I intend to enjoy it. :yes:
It IS crazy but that's how chemo works--as soon as you feel normal again--ZAP!!
I have one more treatment with this particular type of chemo then they are gonna switch me to a different type of chemo medicine for four more treatments--then it's radiation time. I get chemo once every three weeks--doing it early this time cuz of Labor Day and I won't be able to get an appt.
My SIL (the one who sent me all the hats) is coming to help out next week just in case. I really appreciate it since hubby is in "retail hell" and can't just leave to tend to me and I hate to ask friends all the time, you know?
How is your heart now? You takin' care of yourself?
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 20, 2007, 05:43:32 PM
It IS crazy but that's how chemo works--as soon as you feel normal again--ZAP!!
I have one more treatment with this particular type of chemo then they are gonna switch me to a different type of chemo medicine for four more treatments--then it's radiation time. I get chemo once every three weeks--doing it early this time cuz of Labor Day and I won't be able to get an appt.
My SIL (the one who sent me all the hats) is coming to help out next week just in case. I really appreciate it since hubby is in "retail hell" and can't just leave to tend to me and I hate to ask friends all the time, you know?
How is your heart now? You takin' care of yourself?
Well, I'm probably headed for a massive coronary,but other than that I'm good LOL!!!I mostly grew out of it,but I have spells here and there.A few years ago I had pericarditis which I've had before. Then probably 3 years ago I had some chest pain, and they found a spot on my heart, after an x-ray. The pill pusher was my doctor at the time,and she insisted I needed to have an angiogram done. So,I had one of those life threatening procedures done. The cardiologist said" I'll trade my heart for yours anytime." He looked at my chart and said"I really don't know how to tell you this, but this test was a waste of time and money. The spot on this x-ray, is a shadow of your left breast. I don't know who read this x-ray, but it is soo obvious that this is a shadow, I can't believe they didn't see it." So, I could've died having this procedure done,and didn't need it anyway. So, that is why I never go to the doctor. That test cost thousands of dollars, that I just did not have at the time. So, Dex doesn't do doctors. :no:
Well then all the more reason you should take care of yourself! So say Dr. Tallulah!! :whip:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 22, 2007, 10:19:42 AM
Well then all the more reason you should take care of yourself! So say Dr. Tallulah!! :whip:
Yeah, Dex......after all, we know what you say you eat and it sounds as if your time bomb is ticking and just when you least expect it..."Dead before you hit the floor."
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 22, 2007, 10:19:42 AM
Well then all the more reason you should take care of yourself! So say Dr. Tallulah!! :whip:
I know. :rolleyes:
Quote from: Bo D on August 22, 2007, 11:03:03 AM
Yeah, Dex......after all, we know what you say you eat and it sounds as if your time bomb is ticking and just when you least expect it..."Dead before you hit the floor."
I hope I go fast. And hopefully I'll be on the up elevator LOL!!! :biggrin:
I'm sorry, Dex. I know I'm a little rough and rude sometimes. But hey.....I care enough to comment. I'll bet you will be on the up elevator, LOL!
Quote from: Bo D on August 22, 2007, 04:23:49 PM
I'm sorry, Dex. I know I'm a little rough and rude sometimes. But hey.....I care enough to comment. I'll bet you will be on the up elevator, LOL!
It's OK.....I know :stupid2: I don't care about myself enough to worry about dying. If it happens, it happens. I have selfworth issues really bad. :biggrin:
Well, we are just gonna have to take care of that, arent' we :biggrin:
OK--quoting Stuart Smalley:
Now go look in your mirror and say:
"Because I'm good enough,
Smart enough, and
darn it...
PEOPLE LIKE ME!"
:rotfl:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on August 23, 2007, 05:35:55 PM
Well, we are just gonna have to take care of that, arent' we :biggrin:
OK--quoting Stuart Smalley:
Now go look in your mirror and say:
"Because I'm good enough,
Smart enough, and
darn it...
PEOPLE LIKE ME!"
:rotfl:
I loved Stewart Smalley. Did you ever see the movie that he's in??? I cant remember the name of it, but it was hilarious. :rotfl:
Nah, can't recall it and too lazy to Google--but I always thought he was a hoot!
I'm beginning to wonder if it's ok to become too dependent on someone.
My DH has become the world to me and I've been thinking that if something ever happened, God forbid, that I would be utterly disabled.
He does EVERYTHING!! I haven't even written a check in over 6 years!
How did I let myself become "taken care of?" :-\
Quote from: tallulahdahling on December 27, 2007, 02:11:25 PM
I'm beginning to wonder if it's ok to become too dependent on someone.
My DH has become the world to me and I've been thinking that if something ever happened, God forbid, that I would be utterly disabled.
He does EVERYTHING!! I haven't even written a check in over 6 years!
How did I let myself become "taken care of?" :-\
What's a DH? :confused:
Dear Husband
Ah, we'll learn ya, chickie :wink:
Quote from: tallulahdahling on January 01, 2008, 09:48:43 AM
Ah, we'll learn ya, chickie :wink:
I need serious help, that's for sure. :yes: