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Title: yesterday was the saddest day in vxn history.
Post by: ~vxn~ on October 21, 2008, 03:47:38 PM
my baby nephew Brandon Tyler was born born yesterday.  he didn't live for very long.  he was a precious little darling.  4lbs 13 oz 16 inches long.  he had a lot of hair for a little guy.  pouty lips and a cute little nose (the same nose all the cousins and siblings have).
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Post by: Henry Hawk on October 21, 2008, 04:07:54 PM
 :(
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Post by: Locutus on October 21, 2008, 06:06:32 PM
How sad ~vxn~.   :'(

My thoughts are with you and your family. 
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Post by: ~vxn~ on October 21, 2008, 08:25:57 PM
 :'(  thank you.
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Post by: smokeykat on October 21, 2008, 08:44:38 PM
A Baby's Secret

I'm just a little fellow
who didn't quite make it there
I went straight to be with Jesus
But I'm waiting for you here.
Don't you fret about me mother
I'm of all God's Lambs most blest
I'd have loved to stay here with you
But the shepherd knows what's best.
Many dwell where I live
Waited years to enter in
Struggled through a world of sorrow
And their lives were marred with sin.
So sweet mother don't you sorrow
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom
I went straight to Jesus' bosom
From my lovely mother's womb.
Thank you for the life you gave me
It was brief but don't complain
I have all of heavens glory
Suffered none of earthlings pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me
I'd loved to have brought it fame
But if I'd lingered in earth's shadows
Might instead have brought it shame.
Father gave me something for you
It's our secret mother dear
Pressed it tight against my forehead
whispered in my tiny ear.
I'll be waiting for you mother
You and father, brothers and sis
I'll be with you then forever
Then I'll give you fathers kiss.
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Post by: ~vxn~ on October 21, 2008, 09:40:31 PM
thanks for posting smokeykat.
***


Grandpa, Hold His Hand

Hold his hand, Grandpa,
keep him from all harm.
We know he's safe with you,
so welcoming and warm.

He's so small and sweet—
guide him on his way.
Tell him that we love him,
teach him how to play.

We will miss him dearly,
the boy we never knew—
comfort him, Grandpa,
we know he's safe with you.

We all love him,
most of all his mother.
Sweet little baby boy,
replaceable by no other.

One so little,
it hardly seems fair.
Hold his hand, Grandpa—
he will soon be there.
***

(for my nieces, who would have made great big sisters: )

Little Brandon Tyler

"Hello, little Lovey,
dear bundle of joy,"
said darling little girls
to sweet baby boy.

"We love you, Gummy Bear,
we wish you could stay—
we'd watch you grow up,"
darling little girls say.

"Sweet baby boy,"
said darling little girls,
"we'd keep you with us—
we're our mother's world."

"We wish things were different,
not at all this way.
We'll love you forever,
farewell's too hard to say—

so, hello, little Lovey,
dear bundle of joy,"
said darling little girls
to sweet baby boy.
***

Sweet Dreams

Now we lay you
down to sleep,
precious baby
be at peace,
with family
we've lost and love,
wait for us
up above.
***
Title: Re: yesterday was the saddest day in vxn history.
Post by: Exterminator on October 22, 2008, 11:41:50 AM
I'm sorry to hear that.   :(
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Post by: Gryphon on October 23, 2008, 07:37:47 PM
I am so sorry...I cant imagine what you guys must be feeling right now.
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Post by: me on October 23, 2008, 07:43:27 PM
My thoughts are with you and your family vxn.  :(
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Post by: followsthewolf on October 23, 2008, 07:44:41 PM
There is no way to express my sorrow for your loss.

I can only say I'm sorry.

Hang in there the best you can, ~vxn~
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Post by: awol on October 23, 2008, 09:36:57 PM
Even if we try to pray, our prayers often crumble in our souls, our dreams dissolve in our hearts. Despair seeps in the doors, taps at the windows, and threatens to clog all our passages of hope. How can we speak softly to God when we see, yet again, the fruitless stain of our blood; when we hold a beautiful, perfect but still child in our arms? For some of us, no amount of explanation—medical or theological—can soothe.

I'm so sorry vxn.

:'(
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Post by: pariann on October 24, 2008, 09:56:06 AM
Sorry vxn. 
I think of my two lost sons every single day.  Over time the loss gets easier, but you never forget them.  My aunt sent me this print. It hangs on a wall in my livingroom all by itself.  For some reason it gives me comfort to look at it.
(http://members.tripod.com/~collector98/pm98/square.jpg)
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Post by: Palehorse on October 24, 2008, 10:17:13 AM
 :' :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
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Post by: Sandy Eggo on October 24, 2008, 10:37:03 AM
...there aren't any words that seem right...


I'm sorry, vxn :(
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Post by: Bo D on October 24, 2008, 11:14:25 AM
I don't know what to say. I guess something like this puts it all in perspective and shows us all how stupid and silly we are when we start arguing with each other on here. Nothing....NOTHING...on this Earth is more important than family.

I'm sorry. So sorry.
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Post by: ~vxn~ on October 27, 2008, 06:26:53 PM
thanks for the words, kids.
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Post by: Dexter Morgan on October 31, 2008, 11:10:24 PM
~vxn~ this is late, I just now saw this. I'm so sorry for your family's loss.  :'(
Title: Re: yesterday was the saddest day in vxn history.
Post by: ~vxn~ on November 01, 2008, 02:42:43 PM
thank you, dex. 
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Post by: Dexter Morgan on November 01, 2008, 02:54:11 PM
Quote from: ~vxn~ on November 01, 2008, 02:42:43 PM
thank you, dex. 
I hope everybody in your family is doing OK. It's always bad when a child dies. That's not how it's suppose to work. The elderly die.... not children. I'm sure you being there is a  great comfort to Mom. Some things in life seem so senseless.  :no:
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Post by: kimmi on November 02, 2008, 11:24:23 AM
vxn, I'm very sorry  for your loss.  You will all be in my thoughts. 
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Post by: ~vxn~ on November 09, 2008, 03:19:45 PM
thank you.

it is still pretty rough.  my mom tried to imply that my sister let him die.  (we had a DNR--but it was amended.  it he looked like he was going to make it or try to breathe--then help him.  if not--don't torture him.  let him sleep in peace.)  my sister was distraught.  i was able ot reason with her and talk her down--there was nothing that could be done--she did all she could and tried everything so he could have a chance to live. 

my mother is not a mother.  she is a women who had children.  there is a difference.
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Post by: Dexter Morgan on November 09, 2008, 09:18:44 PM
Quote from: ~vxn~ on November 09, 2008, 03:19:45 PM
thank you.

it is still pretty rough.  my mom tried to imply that my sister let him die.  (we had a DNR--but it was amended.  it he looked like he was going to make it or try to breathe--then help him.  if not--don't torture him.  let him sleep in peace.)  my sister was distraught.  i was able ot reason with her and talk her down--there was nothing that could be done--she did all she could and tried everything so he could have a chance to live. 

my mother is not a mother.  she is a women who had children.  there is a difference.
You're right... a huge difference. I think your sister did the right thing. Suffering should never be prolonged when the outlook is that dismal. Pardon me for saying so but.... your Mom needs to butt out. Her being like that towards your sister is doing nothing but hurting her at a horrible time.It's time for healing not pouring salt in the wounds.  :no:
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Post by: ~vxn~ on November 10, 2008, 11:04:29 AM
my sister thinks our mother is just trying to push her to suicide.  think of all the pity my mother could get then!  the loss of a grandchild, then his grief-stricken mother! 

i've never wanted to punch someone so bad in all my life.
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Post by: me on November 10, 2008, 01:56:34 PM
I'm glad your sister is aware of whats going on and hope she can hold up.  My heart goes out to both of you. {{{HUGS}}}}
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Post by: ~vxn~ on November 10, 2008, 04:16:14 PM
ty, me.
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Post by: Dexter Morgan on November 10, 2008, 05:20:56 PM
Quote from: ~vxn~ on November 10, 2008, 11:04:29 AM
my sister thinks our mother is just trying to push her to suicide.  think of all the pity my mother could get then!  the loss of a grandchild, then his grief-stricken mother! 

i've never wanted to punch someone so bad in all my life.
That would make me soooo mad!!!  :mad: It's horrible that she has a sick desire, to garner attention for herself  that way. My Mom wants everybody to pity her too. Of course my Mom IS mentally ill. So, I guess it's more acceptable. I dunno... but you need to keep your Mom away from your sister that's for sure. Your sister is in an emotional place, where she could be easily pushed over the edge. We don't want that to happen.  :no: I hate to say this but your Mom sounds mentally poisonous to you girls, and your brother too. How is he doing by the way?  :confused:
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Post by: ~vxn~ on November 10, 2008, 05:41:34 PM
the one bro that got away is doing great--wife, baby, 2 step sons.  the one she has her clutches in is doing terribly.  can't work, can't keep a girl, she sucks the life out of him. 

no matter what my mother does--she never takes responsibility. 

she tried telling my sister that the baby was bleeding from the neck/throat.  and that maybe god was trying to give him a way to breathe.  i had that baby naked.  i put a diaper and jammie on him.  he wasn't bleeding from anywhere.  he was a precious eternally sleeping angel.  my sister took that hard.  she knew her baby wasn't bleeding--she was just appauled that my mother would say that. 

my mother is toxic.  i have known that since childhood.  we were born orphans.
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Post by: Dexter Morgan on November 13, 2008, 09:57:17 PM
Quote from: ~vxn~ on November 10, 2008, 05:41:34 PM
the one bro that got away is doing great--wife, baby, 2 step sons.  the one she has her clutches in is doing terribly.  can't work, can't keep a girl, she sucks the life out of him. 

no matter what my mother does--she never takes responsibility. 

she tried telling my sister that the baby was bleeding from the neck/throat.  and that maybe god was trying to give him a way to breathe.  i had that baby naked.  i put a diaper and jammie on him.  he wasn't bleeding from anywhere.  he was a precious eternally sleeping angel.  my sister took that hard.  she knew her baby wasn't bleeding--she was just appauled that my mother would say that. 

my mother is toxic.  i have known that since childhood.  we were born orphans.
What a horrible thing for her to tell your sister.  :spooked: She's very sick and should get some mental help ASAP. I feel sooo bad for you guys.  :'( It's no wonder your brother can't keep it together. Being around her all the time when she's like that is almost mental abuse. Poor guy, maybe someday he will be free of her grip. Wasn't she in poor health a while back? I think at the time, he was having a bad time, with accepting the fact that she could die? Maybe, I'm remembering wrong?  :confused: